Hi Ciluzen, just checking in on you. Sorry you've had a rough weekend where you've found yourself focusing on H too much. I think it is very hard when we're still having so much contact with them! It is so much easier when we are young and a boyfriend finishes with us and we can avoid them like the plague for ever.
You may not feel it, but you still sound incredibly strong to me! To be able to face H so often while doing the house, and to be able to watch videos and look at photos from happier times shows a great strength!
Great news about your soccer team! You're such an amazing lady!