Reading your story I see many similarities to my sitch. I understand the grief and guilt that you express as feeling that it is all on you. I feel this stinging sensation regularly as well. Phoebe just posted in my thread some very good advice as it relates to not taking that all on ourselves. It is not healthy. And it is not accurate. Relationships require 2 persons and they hold 50% of the responsibility.
I plan to check out the ..., as I think that I to fell into that trap over the years in my MR. And now that my WAW has become a run away train, I am dealing with other challenges.
Anyway, you appear to be on the right path working with a coach, focusing on Dbing, and working to improve yourself. I will continue to check in on your sitch and share any advice or feedback that I can based on what I am learning and may be able to offer.
The best advice I have now is to live in the moment, enjoy your time with your kids, and push forward 1 step at a time.
Have a wonderful day and I send you my support in hopes that you may draw additional strength as you need it.
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Me 46 Former W 46 D19 D7 BD Feb 2016 WAW moves out 4/16/16 D final 6/1/2017
It's time for me to start changin' the way I look at the world......and at myself. ~James Howlett aka Wolverine