Rose, I don't know if you have anybody to "spill" on, but you'll need somebody. I try not to say anything except here as far as specifics - but still need to lean on a couple of good friends I've had for 40+ years.
You're blessed to have your kids, they're going to help you focus away so much. Enjoy church - and a walk in nature is one of the best things you can do. Anything you can do to connect with the earth will recharge your batteries in a big way.
I'm glad your H got somebody to edit for him. He's going to have to learn what it's like without you. Have a great day.
Me: 58 Her: 59 Kids: 0 Dog: 1 ILYBINILWY: 9/15 D Bomb: 1/11/16 (found out filed) Verified OM: 1/11/16 Moved out: 1/11/16 (thought it was temporary)