Hi, I have had issues with pms self esteem and was gradually getting more frustrated and impatient generally, with our M, and I realized with me. Was having stress dealing with very demanding parent (dysfunctional childhood with him) which was right before wah left. We were new in town supposeldy for a few months and I was having pms and feeling very isolated and down.
He literally ran out the door one morning unexpectedly said he's been thinking about it a while. Later revealed he hasn't been up front as he was afraid of conflict and confronting me that I would get upset and apologized for that but it dead set on ending it all
I am very ashamed humiliated and feel he sees me as a hopeless mess, no career prospects, and leaning too heavily oh him. He has consulted iwht family and his new counselor since few months before he left, who specializes in male issues.
What is recommended besides C dealing with the esteem GaL tryihg to act as if I'm super happy? I don't want him to look down and pity me or see me as invaluable or a train wreck. It is very difficult not to go deeper into despair and low self esteem when feeling like I've lost the most precious gift and best friend of my life. And his amazing family, the dream loving healhty family I always longed for. I am literally crushed.
I don't want to be thrown away like garbage and that I am some kind of mess. I am doing all I can but Compeltely on my own in new city, looking for a place to live (bad housing market for rentals ), new work, and a life. It's awful
Take your focus off of him and put it on Yourself.
We have all felt the same way as YOU and with the wonderful GIFT of TIME and continuing to MOVE FORWARD with your life you will start to feel better.
