Had a thought this morning. When h introduced the kids to ow in October and I confronted him again whether he was having an affair and he Sid no but then said 'but I have told her we're over' .....essentially he did end us b4 he allegedly started with her ( as in admired it in November) .

How can I stop going over things in my head. Wish it would stop. Had a massive heart to heart with my Oder son yesterday. Tried to be very careful what I said but had to say that what daddy has done is wrong and that no it isn't right to walk out on your wife. He agreed but got really upset.

My younger one tried to ask if we were getting a divorce but he only got the letter d and then he cried because he couldn't say the word. My heart breaks for my kids.

H is living his dream life 45 mins away and the kids have to put up with me putting on a brave face