Wonderful posts Phoebe, your insights are beautiful honed and written.

Sadhub, I am always pleased when I read anger in a poster. It means a movement down the Kubler Ross Grief curve. It is so important for moving you forward.

Your W is responsible for her share of the mess in your M. Something in your words about being treated like a child triggered her rage.

White anger of determination is very different to the red anger of rage. Rage is flooding of angry emotions and is completely out of control. White anger is directive and will urge you onwards, necessary to healing. All is as it should be Sadhub.

Please do not concern yourself about the future, you are becoming a man only a fool would leave, a father of enormous love. I have a great deal of respect for this. You will shift, I recognise the signs already, let go and let God. Your higher power is working with you.

What a remarkable young lady your D17 is becoming and that happens when a child has the love of her parents, in particular the love of her father.

I have mentionedreams hugs haven't I. Strongly recommend them.

I will post on sleep another time when I have gathered my thoughts.

Know that already Sadhub you have your supportive tribe here, posting sound advice to you.

V


Freedom is just another word for nothing left to loose.
V 64, WAW