I hope your day in court will not be to horrible, 1313. It can be pretty nervewracking, because you can prepare all you want, but there's usually unexpected things and twists and turns that can throw you off if you're not very grounded. I wish you all the best. Take the time you need to think about what is thrown at you.
Phoebe, thank you - I don't feel very awesome, I think I'm just doing what I need to in order to not break down. I have a knot in my stomach and a tightness in my throat that could take over if I let them (especially at night), and sometimes they do. But it doesn't last as long as it used to, and it really, really helps to force the focus onto something else.
It also helps me to think about how I felt when I was at home with H, because he would push me so far away that I felt twice as painfully lonely there with him as I do now. I cried more, and was less able to focus on anything else (because of the push-pull thing he did).
Had a lovely dinner with S today and then watched Chef - it's such a fun movie, and sweet in many ways. The only problem I have with it is how unrealistically saintly Sofia Vergara is in it...
Oh, and a guy 15 years younger than me checked me out in the grocery store today. Like, really checked me out. The miracles of eyeliner!
M 16 yrs, WH62, P54 3 adult blended kids EA 11/13, BD1 6/14 PA fall 14, BD2 2/15 Piecing 2015, BD3 12/15 Separated 4/16 WH moved OW in 5/16 Divorced 6/15/17
