WAW still angry, moved out, D on the way?

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To provide a short recap of my sitch.

On February 7, my W snapped because I was running late in taking my daughters to a daddy daughter dance. She was nagging me and just kept going as I was trying to get ready to go. After several harsh words and comments at me, I responded with, "Please stop talking to me like a child."
She came unhinged, and refused to let me apologize when I realized that she was so angry.

Upon my and my daughters return that evening from the dance, my W seemed in good spirits, but cold towards me. The following day, she blew me off and went around saying that she will do what she wants, and that was her new motto. She had been on the phone with her parents for the 2 hours we were out.

The next week was a roller coaster ride, as she would get on me about the things that I never do, and that she needs to get out and chase her dreams. She announced that she wanted to separate and get some space to just find herself. I did all of the things you should not do. Begged, pleaded, argued, chased, etc.

I found MWD and DR a week later.

But the following Sunday, she advised me that she had asked our bishop at church for permission to separate, but she was told he would not give his blessing for that and referred her to a MC. My W advised that she would go, but not with me. She wanted to know how to leave me and that is why she would go. I also met with our bishop and he referred me to an IC.

My W went to MC and then advised that she would attend several more times and then we would go together. When I went to my first visit with IC, my W called me just before I went in, and told me she was sorry, but she just needed to clear her head and take time away would be best. She did not have feeling for anyone, but she wanted to talk with me after my appointment so that we could make plans to care for the family and get through the separation. I said that would be fine.

My W had her 2nd appointment with the FC that evening after my appointment. She had also set up to have my D17 meet with the family counselor for a bit.
This is where it started to unravel and the anger started to spew.
Upon returning that evening, my W seemed agitated, and my D17 seemed upset. They both came in and talked with me. W advised that her goal set by the counselor was to speak with me more about our daughters. I said that sounded good. D17 said that it was decided that she was going to save $2000 to put down for a used car which was against her mothers wishes of us just buying it. D17 felt that she wanted to be responsible and not just have one given to her. Mer mother agreed after the IC advised this was a good idea. I later found out that D17 was upset that night because her mother told her when they got home, that she loved her, but she would have to choose between her or her father as this proceeded.

After D17 went to bed, I told my W thank you for the call this afternoon and that I looked forward to talking about the plans for the family and the separation so I could support her. Her response was chilling and the beginning of the worst 2 months of my life.
WAW stated, "Oh, we don't need to talk any longer, as I determined that our goals are not the same. " I asked what she meant by that. She responded "Your goal is to fix this. My goal is to just make it end."

My threads share details, and currently we are separated, D17 has chosen to stay with me, we have a co parenting plan for my D5, and I have been awaiting D paperwork to arrive any moment now. Although it has been weeks since she said they would be served. It appears that she has torched all bridges with sharing with her entire family who has basically not only disowned me, but appeared to be the angry villagers with torches and pitchforks when they raided my home and took almost everything.
And she will not even acknowledge me or look at me when meeting to hand off my D5.

I am heartbroken, angry and constantly under rolling panic attacks, the likes of which i have never experienced in my life.

I appreciate the love and support on theses forums, and it has given me strength, courage and great advice to apply as I move forward one step at a time in this, the most challenging time in my life.

I send out my prayers and support to all that are also in the midst of challenge, and I know that we have those that have lived through it and learned and share, and there are those of us that are learning, sharing, and looking towards better days.

May God bless each of you this day.