Hi ReNewed, Wow, sounds really really hard for you right now. i can relate to so many things you said - I don't know much about you but from everything I've read, do you think perhaps you have codependent behavior patterns? I sure do and realizing this has been very helpful for me since my husband moved out 2 weeks ago...some of our issues relating to me not making enough money were making life stressful. Worth thinking about as part of the pattern is giving power to others - making them, the husband center of our world. When people say 'take good care of yourself' it can feel like - what the heck does that even mean? Sounds like you have a strong spiritual practice and that can definitely help you now....Have you heard of Marianne Williamson? She is AMAZING...google her and watch some of her videos - she is a spiritual teacher who teaches based on A Course in Miracles.
In terms of jobs, think about the lhf idea - that's low hanging fruit...easiest least stressful thing to bring in money...maybe where it won't matter if you cry - like cleaning hotel rooms ??? thinking of you!
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