Last week was a little difficult, but I know it helps when I keep active, so I'm trying to get back into GAL mode.
I have been doing a mix of work/chores and fun, and I find that everything that I do that takes my mind off what's behind me and focuses it on either what's right here and now or in my future, helps. I find that being present in the moment is very powerful. Taking the dog to the dog park, preparing meals, focusing on work, organizing my space - it all works to lift my mood. And it also tells me that I am not in the deepest grief, I'm not crying in the grocery store or have problems concentrating because my mind is preoccupied with H or R thoughts. I've done that before, so I know the difference.
Son and I do enjoyable things like going to the farmers market or cooking. I don't know what I would have done without him right now.
I just applied for a job that fits perfectly with my background. It's not as well paid as other, more tedious jobs I could apply for, but I would be working with my passion and I would be able to combine it with other activities/jobs that I enjoy.
I have plans for tomorrow - going to church and then helping son remodel. Monday, I am meeting with a professional contact. Wednesday I'm going to meet with a friend I haven't seen since I was here last (2014). That should keep me busy for a few days.
No contact with H since yesterday morning. Going to stay dark as much as possible.
M 16 yrs, WH62, P54 3 adult blended kids EA 11/13, BD1 6/14 PA fall 14, BD2 2/15 Piecing 2015, BD3 12/15 Separated 4/16 WH moved OW in 5/16 Divorced 6/15/17
