Well today My kids had a Bday party to go to. even though it was my day to have the kids I let my wife take them to the party. It was a friend of my S and the parents are the recently new friends to my wife, also the OM's friends, soooo yeah I'm not really the best person to take them to the party. I would love to have stood up for the boundaries we had set in place but that only hurts my kids in this situation. So i made use of my free time and went to the gym. When my W or soon to be XW i guess came home she dropped the kids off gripped about how tired they were and what time did they go to bed last night. She is pleasant some days, and then she proceeded to say good bye to the kids cause she had to go. She works tongiht at 7 and is goign out before hand i guess. Not privy to where she's going? I hate all this secrecy and lies. Although i remain pleasant, I'm feeling like I just need out of this limbo phase, I know it would do me really good emotionally to not see her everyday. She treats me like a roommate she hates and I just feel seperation will allow her to go through with whatever she needs to go through with OM etc. Not sure if that will sovle anything, it will definately allow for me to heal and grow from here though. This living together while she is seeing someone else is BS.
Anyways, thats my rant for today.
Me 40 W 35 Kids 2 S6 D3 T 10 yrs M 8yrs BD 11Mar16
