During the week, I am so busy and I enjoy going to the house and seeing the kids before bed. I find reading my D4 her story relaxing and soothing. The weekends are more difficult as I have time on my hands and nothing to do and nowhere to go. I try and focus on me but feel like a hostage who has just been released and doesn't know which direction to run in!
I tried talking to a single woman at work. She is kind and pleasant to me. She did however ask if the separation is still fresh which made me think that I no woman would go near me for a long time, so that's dating out. I then see my W who is just cold and on edge when I am around. She likes messaging me often but in her presence, you can feel the tension and awkward silence. It kills my confidence with other people yet she should be the person I am closest to but she has built up a wall. She says that we are friendly but the way she is towards me, I would hate to be her enemy! How can I shake all this up? It is a stale mate with no progress. Nothing has worked and I am fresh out of ideas.
I gotta keep breathing. Because tomorrow the sun will rise. Who knows what the tide could bring?
