This is awful. I know the despair you are experiencing. I wouldn't wish it on anyone. Unfortunately, right now, he's not giving you anything to work with. He's checked out of your M. As much as it hurts, you're just going to have to accept that. He's gone. This will hurt and there is no way to get around it but you are going to have to let him go. Right now, you are clinging to him and that is not going to bring him back. All it is going to do is prolong your pain and suffering. First step? Detach. It is imperative that you are able to do this. By emotionally detaching from him, you will be able to begin caring for yourself. Spend this time working on you and your issues. We all have issues and things we need to address in our lives. So put your focus there. Get the book and read it. Follow the process. Its counter intuitive but it works. Turn your sights inward and make YOU the priority in your life. There is hope for your M. Give him time and space. Work on YOU. There will come a time again when you will interact with him in person. When you do, he will see the NEW you. A confident woman that loves herself and who is working on her issues. This will be attractive to him. It will confuse him. It may make him angry. So him how awesome you are. Remind him of the Renewed he fell in love with and that he will be missing out on if he continues to walk away from your life together.
Me: 48 y/o W: 47 y/o Together: > 20 yrs BD: Dec '15, then S 2nd BD: Mar '16, then I filed for D April '16: started piecing
