Renewed, I feel you on the part about not having much family support.
I understand the loneliness part too, especially when kid is not with me. I seek solace on the board, meet with friends or just get out of the house.
What can you do for yourself when the pangs hit you? Good to have a list so that when things get really lonely, you'll have something to occupy your thoughts with.
Regarding the no-contact, I am guessing that it's the guilt. The sight of you will remind him of what he has done and he may be struggling with his decisions.
Xh always has difficulty looking me in the eye after BD, but he keeps looking at me when I interact with kid. I can see the struggle andvthe guiktbsome times.
These spouses have been abducted by aliens and until they start coming out of the fog, we are their enemies and the bane of their existence.
You can call me Dory/ Grl.
As a wise fish once sang,"Just keep swimming!"
It's no use to go back to yesterday because I was a different person then.
