Mia, I'm glad to come here and see that you've got some plans for the next bank holiday. I'm glad your friends are going to celebrate your special day w/you. Enjoy the time you spend w/them.
I do understand your disbelief in the way that your h has done to you and your family. No one would have ever thought that they would have done the things that they have done. I am so sorry that he's still acting out.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
