PP's New Solo Adventure (11)

[PigPen]

Thanks everyone, appreciate all the support and those who are following my journey.

Tomorrow is my 1 Year Anniversary of DB'ing! Woah!! I can't even begin to list all of the changes that have happened in that year, feels like a lifetime.

Tomorrow I'm also meeting up with some fine people who are in a similar situation to my own in lovely Las Vegas - can't wait to meet them in person.

Last night I had a dream about my STXW, nothing major but she popped into the dream. I've been extra curious as to why the D wasn't moving forward quickly as that was her wish when I spoke to her last.

Well, tonight I got an email from my L entitled "The Sleeping Dog Has Awakened." My STXW has submitted all of her information and is restarting the D. 7 months after filing and 16 months after BD. Looks like it's back in motion.

We've been strict NC for the last three months, not a peep, so I know it's just a formality at this point. The curiosity hadn't given in to hope so I'll probably ruminate on it tonight and then let it go. She's living her life, I'm living mine.

I think on some level I'll be relieved when this is all said and done as there will be no tie between us, and I won't say "Well I'm still legally married." It'll be over completely and that will free me up 100% to get on with my life. I'm sure even the minute and distant tie of the legality still plays a role in my life and the decisions I make moving forward.

Can't believe a year ago I found this site and joined up. God what a lifesaver it has been.

Cheers from the road everyone. One more week wandering around the states and then I'm off to South America until August.

Keep DB'ing, keep realizing that life will go on and that you can make it as incredible and amazing as you want, even with hurt feelings and scars.

PP