ReNewed, oh my, I am so sorry you are here. What an unthinkable way to treat another person, and your own W, it so sickening. It is so devastating and hard to even wrap your mind around. I just wanted to offer you my support and tell you that it will not be this way forever. Unfortunately, it can be a long and difficult process. So as Phoebe says, take good care of yourself. You are the most important one.
I was there just a few short years ago. My H did a 180 and turned my life upside. I was scared, anxious, depressed, and completely blind-sighted. I never saw it coming. And while he is back now, I am still recovering from the trauma a year later. You mention that you have not seen signs of infidelity, but I want to just caution you that your sitch very much suggests he has run off to someone else. I know that is the last thing you want to hear, but I just want to caution you that there is that possibility. Read the other posters, see the similarities, and always trust your gut.
Keep posting here. Keep reading. Let those that you trust support you. Deep breathe. You will get through this. No one can break you, and you one day will find that strong and confident self again.
“Forgiveness liberates the soul. It removes fear. That is why it is such a powerful weapon.” – Nelson Mandela
