Hi ReNewed. I am so sorry that you are in this situation. I don't have a lot of insight to offer you right now, but I would like to try to give you a message that I just finally understood after being a full 4.5 months into my own marriage mess.

Try to be kind and gently to yourself. The single most important person in your life now is YOU, and you need to take care of her.

Keep posting, and you will find people here that will provide support and information, and will lend you their ears.

H: 44, Me: 45
Married: 20 y Together: 25 y
no kids
Walk away: 12/15
Asked for temp separation 12/25/15
PA confirmed 3/16 (apparently neither the first, nor the last PA he has had)
H filed for D 5/16