14 days of sheer hell continues

[DDJ]

So i've read BluWave's thread and WOW. I am focusing too much on how what i do impacts on my WW.

I can see the guilt on her face, in her voice. She knows that I do not trust her, and she has inverted it so that she cannot trust me either. As though I am going to somehow plot revenge and do the same to her, just to get back at her.
I actually told her, "do not let me not trusting you, become an excuse for you not making the right choice, I must learn to trust you again, even if / when we are divorced".

I do need to DB better, but i think that day 3 of detachment went well. She was seeking my attention like the good old days. And I was ignoring her plight like the bad old days. But this things is counter-intuitive so I will just have to be strong, become comfortable with the twisty turning tummy and continue moving forward, for me.

@darknes, yes, that includes pressing ahead with the divorce proceedings, slowly :-)