I guess I am confused because I feel like my intentions were pretty clear? Maybe not?

My heart is in my throat right now. I don't want to leave her hanging, but I feel like I need to clear my mind before I respond?

Me: 38 y/o
W: 38 y/o
Together: 10 yrs
Married: 7 yrs
S1, D3, S15(hers previous, I adopted May'15)
WBD: Sep '15
W's EA confirmed Oct'15
W Filed Dec '15
Personal awakening Mar'16