Need advice

[CRW]

OK I really need some guidance here. Conversation we just had:

WW: I want things to stay the same. I think the kids are doing great and adjusting well. I don't want to fight about visitation or custody or anything anymore. The kids are happy and i haven't denied you seeing them more than what is ordered if you request it. I don't want to fight with you again or be upset with you, it isn't fair to the kids. Us getting along is the most important aspect of our relationship.

Me: so two months ago when i 'woke up', i was able to clear things out of my head. I let go of all the negativity and the conflict inside me. what was left was someone fulfilled and happy. however, what was still there were my feelings for you. i'm only connected to the things I am passionate about in my life, and you are still one of those things, moreso than I ever was before. This has been the biggest reason for my lack of clarity regarding us getting a divorce. If it was meant to be, how could my spirit waking up lead to me being more passionate for you than I was before? I've been meditating on it and praying on it frequently to understand. I agree with you, I do not want any further conflict, I want to do what's best for us and our family. I wake up each day thinking more and more that that thing is a family whole and strong and together once again.

WW: I'm not sure what this means?


How does she not know what I meant? Was it not clear that I want to put our family back together? How do I respond? I am so nervous right now......