- Our MC was manipulated in seeing nothing wrong with my WWs behaviour. Going to use a different dr for IC. - WW still says that she cannot trust herself, thats why she wants out of the marriage, and will visit the OP when he comes to the city even though "he is not interested" in her, they're just friends. LOL - WW does not want to go for IC, but i am going. - I gave no hugs to my WW, even though about 4 or 5 were requested from her.
As for this morning, the Katy Perry song "Hot and cold" comes to mind. And i'm sorry for being like that. But one thing that I cannot shake is that I feel in control of my life, when I realise that i want a divorce, and that I do not have to take this shyt. I feel that i have lost all control (and given it to my WW) when there is a blinking of hope that she might come back. I'm not sure if this is a part of the process, but it feels so right - my entire soul is telling me that a twisted stomach is not good.
Last night she slept like a rock, I awoke 4 times and was extremely anxious. I'm not anxious at all now. I am calm, I am in control and I know what i want from my life.
I will definitely speak about my control issues during IC, but a person should always go with your gut... the calm one, not the twisted turning excuse for one.
Just cos things are going right, doesn't mean that they were always wrong.
