Now how can you go NC when the person you are supposed to be NC with won't let you ? H came to see kids a little earlier than usual, stayed a little later than usual and even read them a story ( which he hadn't done for ages). Usually when he comes in you can hear him as he makes his presence well felt but tonight no! Then when he was about to leave he tried to engage into a conversation. Told me about kid being hurt ( fair enough!), then moved on to ask me if I got a text from him ( never got it) and tried to explain/ justify why he couldn't be with kids this weekend and why he was shortening his time on Friday. Honestly I really didn't need to know why he decided to want to spend less time with his kids! It's his life now and as he doesn't want me to be part of it, I don't want to know.
Then he moved onto the legal separation paperwork! He was telling me that he had done his part and now it's legally binding. I already knew that, and that is why I wanted a legal separation! I don't really understand why he had to mention it as it all done through solicitors. The funny part was that his voice has been very calm and respectful not like last week. At one point he even made a comment about the dog saying he (the dog) shouldn't be upstairs. I said nothing but thought to myself as he no longer lives in his house what the dog does is none of his business!
I'm still hurt and sad about how my M ended, about the fact that H never wanted to work on it, but I think that I have now reach acceptance. I need to go on my journey and see what the world has to offer.
