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[Mona52]

I am heading to Vegas in a few days...

It hit me that if I were still M to jerkface, i would be in my room for the whole weekend, smoking and playing on the computer.

Instead.. I am going out with great friends on Friday, grabbing a few hours of sleep, and hopping on a plane to Vegas for a great, great group of friends.

When I get back on Monday, i am permanently solving a personal issue that causes much stress. I would have never solved this if I were m. and then spending the night with Chris, who will give me flowers, or a small piece of jewelry (nothing expensive) or a stuffed animal. He gave me a Thor doll last week. It was one of those POP dolls, and unless you are a nerd, you wont understand, but those POP dolls are like nerd candy. He had no idea how well he did.

I dont want him to spend his money on me, and i ask him not to, but it feels really good to know that there is a person who wants me in his life so badly that he is constantly putting in effort to make sure i feel appreciated and loved and happy.

On Sunday, he was in a bad mood. He is dealing with stress at work and with his kids and like a normal human, he was stressed and grumpy.

I am not good at grumpy. So I was still my happy self. We went to a dance and I had a hard time sitting in my seat because he did not want to dance. I asked him a bunch of times to dance with me and he said he did not want to dance yet.

Another guy came over and asked me to dance and I went to dance with him. Chris got up and asked a different girl to dance. I was not mad, but he was in such a mood that he wanted to fight. We have never had a fight before.

I asked him why he would dance with her and not me and he said it was because I was up dancing with another guy.

(real quick back story... I met Chris at a singles dance, and the dance we went to on Sunday was a singles dance, and it is perfectly normal for guys to ask the women to dance. I hate these singles dances, because i dont feel single and I dont want other guys asking me to dance. Chris knows this, but he likes these dances because he knows everyone. I told him i cant hurt a guys feelings by refusing to dance, i just cant be mean like that.)

I told him i did not want to dance with any other guy, I wanted to dance with him but he kept saying no. He replied that I was in a bad mood.

At first I was sad. Chris and I always have so much fun together. I tried not to show how sad I was, but he saw. Then I refocused on different things, like my school and trip to vegas, and that thing Chris did a few nights ago. In less than a minute I was back to my normal, happy self. Poor poor Chris was still in a bad mood. Finally he said he just wanted to go home. I said fine and I left and he left. We each got into our cars and I was about to drive home. He blocked me from leaving and asked if I wanted to go back to his house (which is normally where I go after the dances).

This was a hard decision for me. I was in no mood to hang around a grump. I did not want to fight with him, because I would win. I did not want to win. But I did not want to go home. I missed the hell out of him.

I acted as if he was not in a bad mood, and I followed him to his house. He was so grumpy that he lost me on the way, but i dont need him, i have a GPS I made it to his house maybe 10 minutes after he did.

He was still grumpy. We had a normal evening, which is about all I can post

So now, I am like a queen. I went home later, but the next morning he woke up and realized what a complete douche we was. He was so apologetic for being moody and saying mean things and was utterly amazed that i completely let him off the hook for all of it. I cant count how many times he said how he is the luckiest guy in the world. He told me how he went to work and told his friends what a terrible person he was and how sweet i was.

I was not amazing or sweet or any of it. But the fact that he keeps saying those things makes me FEEL amazing and sweet. I dont know how i got along for so many years without someone telling me I am an angel. But now that he does this, I dont ever want to live without it.


Oh Yeah... i have an update on the M front too.

I gave my h the money for the d. I gave him extra money because he said if we pay extra they can expedite it, and I gave him 2 packs of cigarettes. I called the courthouse to see why i was not served yet...

He never filed... he took my money and never filed.