I think it may be the finality of it all. I'm not sure of much anymore and question the devil out of everything now. It's very hard now, especially after coming to the realization that she hid so many things from me. I think the worst of it all was not informing me of her very abusive past (from age 4 to adult) until after BD. I can't see how for 10 years she never told me of it yet expected me to know her and what drives her actions. I'm going to be honest and say I feel like our marriage was nothing but a fraud...
There are moments in this life when you are so confident in the rightness of your actions, that not even for a second do you consider the option that you might be wrong.
