The things kid says just breaks my heart. She wrote in a journal entry to her teacher that daddy left mummy and she is 100% sad.

Then today, she told me that she feels lonely and will like to have a younger sibling. I have to tell her very gently that I won't be able to give her any sibling. This really cuts to the core because we were supposed to try for another kid last year.

Kid suddenly started humming Taylor Swift's We are never getting back together. And asked if I still love daddy. She asked me if I would want to get back with xh if the TP didnt want him anymore.

I told her that I will no longer love someone who does not love me. Kid then commented that I probably wouldn't want to get back with the ex because he had made me so sad.

I used to tell xh the things that kid says. Now I know that there is no point. If he really cared, he wouldn't have used kid as a leverage to get what he wanted. Both of us are just means to an end for him.

I know that just a month or so, I wasnt in love with him but I still had feelings for him. Now, I seem to be reframing the way I have been looking at past events.

You can call me Dory/ Grl.

As a wise fish once sang,"Just keep swimming!"

It's no use to go back to yesterday because I was a different person then.