So with the help of my IC, he pointed out that I have been stuck in self blame mode for the past couple of weeks when on my own. He helped me see that I was taking all the blame for the situation I am in. Thankfully he gave me some pointers and with your comments Sandi and a couple of friends I'm pulling myself round again. I know deep down that I will be fine on my own, that I can be a wonderful father to my kids ( my D says she wants to stay with me always), that I have a lot of positive attributes, I just need to keep believing in myself in the moments of struggle.
I have taken your advice Sandi in my interactions with W and thank you for this.
