I don't know, Jeep.

If it doesn't come back, then maybe it leaves room for other feelings to develop and grow? I'm talking lifelong, rather than over the course of six months or a few years here.

Patience? Compassion for your own suffering and the suffering of others? More focus on self development? A greater sense of self? A better understanding of boundaries? A greater appreciation of the small things in life? The capacity to find joy in little moments in time? A deepening sense of peace and calm?


Me: 48, XH: 42
T: 18 years, M: 15 years

EA/PA 1: 6/2012
EA/PA 2: from autumn 2012-present

BD: 5/2013
ILYBNILWY BD & left: 10/2015

OW conceived: 8/2016
Born: 4/2017

H filed: 7/2017
D final: 28/12/2017