I have now been over 24 hours without the shakes and full blown anxiety. And I did not need to take a anxiety med for the first day in a week. I was able to focus at work, although I do feel a bit tired, but that is probably due to not having a full nights rest in a bit. Although last night was a decent sleep with just a couple of wake ups.
I spent this evening with my lil Angels. Went to dinner and looked at a couple of potential new places to set up a fresh home for us.
D17 is struggling a bit, but she worked hard to stay engaged and out of her anxiety attacks. She did well, but I will need to keep an eye on her and be there as needed. Also I'm gonna check out a therapist option for her tomorrow.
D5 is doing really well and brings a smile to both of us.
In all of this the only moment of challenge was when I saw WAW this morning when dropping off my lil gals. I did fine and kept it short and cordial, but it wound a knot in my stomach that hit off and on all day.
Sad news from my father as it was determined that my mother has been diagnosed with breast cancer. This is ecspecially challenging for the family as it was about a year ago that she was diagnosed with cervical cancer. Her treatment s for that went well and received a good bill of health barely a month ago for that, so this is a shock and blow for the family. I am worried but surprisingly calm and optimistic that she will beat this.
So over all feeling better, a little bitter with WAW, loving the time with my baby girls and praying for my mother and the battle she is now engaging in.
Have a peaceful night everyone.
Me 46 Former W 46 D19 D7 BD Feb 2016 WAW moves out 4/16/16 D final 6/1/2017
It's time for me to start changin' the way I look at the world......and at myself. ~James Howlett aka Wolverine
