I had my first appointment with my counselor on Monday. I tried to be as honest and objective as possible, but she said several things that helped put things into perspective. She encouraged me to not help H detach emotionally.
He asked about my appointment, and I shared a bit. He shared some too. In the evening we watched a movie with the kids. At night, I told him that sometimes I was angry with him for the situation. He said that was understandable.
Then this morning, we made love. I suspect pity sex, but it still put me in a good mood for the day. We had a very happy family dinner tonight, with lots of laughter.
That said, I'm continuing to work on me, and I did several GAL things over the weekend.
Not at all sure how this will end up, but I'm not feeling miserable right now.
Me: 44 H: 44 Kids: 20, 16, 16, and 10 Together/Married: 22 years H announced he was emotionally detached and considering D: 4/4/16 H announced he is going to try to stay and reconnect: 5/1/16