I love my life. Each day brings you more thoughts! Found out that there wete rumours about my H cheating on me going round in his work place (BTW it's where he met OW), and I thought that I would like to know if I was cheated on (Oops sorry already done!). That's so funny as most of the people who know me knew about my H' A but no one would have the guts to tell me. In a way I can understand that they'd not want to upset but on the other hand as a human being didn't I deserved to be respected by H! Luckily as soon as one of my friend found out (she has been cheated on too!), she told me. I'll always be in debts with her because I truly believe that I'd still be with H now if I hadn't been told about his A.
I got confirmation that it isn't the first M that OW has destroyed but also that people who worked with H and knew me can't understand why he left me for her! Apparently she isn't a very likeable person, so I guess my H had affaired down :-). Have you noticed the he left me when in reality I kicked him! I guess he can't really say to OW or all of his mates: my wife kicked me out! Nor can OW say to her friends my BF was kicked out by his wife. Does it matter? NO. Deep down H knows that he got kicked out, my friends all know the truth and the person who H is supposed to live with also know!
I have been so down lately but talking to my friend today, just has made it engrave in my brain that the issues are coming from H's side and not me. That OW isn't as great a person as she wants to be seen. I'm feeling free as H has trade me for someone lesser than me. Finally I'm recognising that it wasn't me but all him and that OW is definitively nowhere near me. She might have the looks but obviously not the brain not values!
I know I shouldn't be like that and put people down, unfortunately this is what I needed today to realise my self worth.
