14 days of sheer hell continues

[DDJ]

@darknes, well i'm not necessarily going to give her 70% - how do you actually share a child 50%, or should I rather contest for custody - but thats neither here nor there right now... So i'll worry about that when i get there, because i don't want to start an argument.

I finally have command over the house, its been clean longer than I could ever remember. I'm disciplining our S, and so is she, which both of us have never done. I'm even putting my son before myself, which i have also never done.

I've still got to improve myself in this mess, before i can think of another relationship. I realise that, one of many over the last month.

I know that I need to stick through this, is this what i signed up for, probably - i cant expect that I won't hit a rough patch after 10 years. Imagine that as a legacy.. So we had problems, and I divorced her after 2 months of problems. Yah, not exactly kosher.

I need to learn to stop spinning, control my emotions. I probably need to get a batman mask - because I do need to become one dimensional to her. I get that.

I need to plan on living my life without her in it, that's where it might go anyhows, I just need to try and sleep whilst doing that.

She's trying to cake eat by wanting to hold out on the D until the house is in my name, which will probably be in August. She will be able to get her own place by then. This will also buy me time to detach. I cannot make life comfortable for her, but i must not make it uncomfortable either - is that right?