Things are better between my dad and I. He never apologized, but we agreed to disagree. he is super defensive when it comes to his wife. I am going to Montego Bay at a 5 star resort the friend I travelling with has visited twice. All inclusive, don't have to worry about a thing! I will be nothing but relaxing, eating, drinking, and sunning, just the way I like it these days! We aren't even venturing off the resort. I used to be full of adventure on vacays, but this one needs to be low key we both need to reset.
I figured out NG (or old guy for that matter, lol)began talking to his new GF while we were figuring out what we were going to do with our R. it hurts like a MOFO to have this happen yet again in my life, but it explains a lot. I had people tell me who know both of us that I was the first thing real in his life and he couldn't handle it. Whatever the reason, still stinks.
I have been on this weird journey as I get older I become so much more honest with myself even if I've got to dig deep and find what I don't want to. I think that's called being a grown-up:) I have come to realize why this is so hard for me to deal with and get over and I shared it with my bestie and I will share with my IC tomorrow. The reasons freaked me out, but my friend assured me they were understandable. One day I'll share, but I haven't quite worked through it yet.
All I can say right now is that I am so tired, physically and emotionally. And no matter what I do to make life easier, it doesn't work. My head has been just above water for the past 8 years, but right now I feel like I am sinking.
