To answer your other question, I meant no feeling from her . No joy, no affection, no tenderness.....no love. But I think her LL is acts of service so I gotta appreciate the act.
R 25 years M 14 years S11 & S13 Working on it alone since Oct 2014 M in trouble a lot earlier (~2 years) Feb 2016. 1st R chat in a yr. Next R chat Aug'17 Still together