14 days of sheer hell continues

[DDJ]

@painter, I know what I stand for, I don't want a drunk wife.i don't want my son around her drunk family either. I have sacrificed my own values for the last 10 years for someone else. My WW is so stubborn that I have always been unable to gain her respect. She can control her use of alcohol,when she wants to. My mother does not like woman that drink but my wife has always refused to not drink at least one drink in her company.she says because she's her own woman.

Ive also realised that I've been wandering myself for the last few years. Resenting her for her lack of respect, not respecting her and almost kissing another girl, just a few months ago

Perhaps that is why I think that a divorce could be exactly what I need. I was fantasising about having a first kiss not so long ago. It's a way out, a new beginning, an excuse to be wayward. This could be why I'm not too concerned about my son, only thinking of my impending freedom.

I have lost control, just like her. I need to focus, find out what I really want and then just do it. Counselling is set for tomorrow so will think long about what I want. But right now,I feel most free with a decision to divorce, and a new beginning.