Latest dispatch from purgatory...

I never told the children that summer camp is a given. I told them we need to see what kind of scholarship money we would receive. Despite this, W has told children and practically everyone who will listen that they are going to summer camp. She is completely oblivious to the expenses we have incurred due to the D - on top of her reckless spending. When I factor in the future expenses we have yet to face (two households and on-going D proceedings), we really cannot afford camp. It breaks my heart. My children LOVE camp, and could really benefit from it - especially this year.

I told my W that camp (at the price quoted to me) would be financially irresponsible and would put us all in a terrible position. My financial advisor has corroborated this. Now W is lobbying the camp for more discounts. This is what she has been reduced to; begging for discounts so she can feed her addictions instead. She has this delusion that she will get some magical scholarship. In the meantime, no one has told the children and she is not making alternative arrangements for them.

Who is going to break the news to them? I don't want to seem like the villain.

Underneath it all is my smoldering resentment that my WW actions have deprived my children of so much. It hurts. It really does.

We are still doing de facto in-house S. no light at the end of the tunnel here either. On a bright note, I will be taking kids with me to visit family for Passover.

GAL: Still working out. Will be stepping up the frequency. Had great 5K with S12 yesterday. Wicked sunburn though. ouch.

RAI


Me 48 XW 45
lots o' kids
D April 2017