5 weeks in since she said she doesnt love me.

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Hey all thank you for all the support. Okay long update.

The OM's Wife reached out to me that night after reading my texts. we had a chat, it turned out she was aware of her husband and my wife for months. Since they work together (OM is W boss) even their office has been suspicious and rumors have been going around. I guess i am the last guy to know.

Ended up comparing notes with OM's Wife, what she knows and what little i know (since this is all fresh for me).

I spiraled down alittle that night and gave in to anger, paranoia, jelousy and all the other dark thoughts.

Monday morning i was no better and all i could think of was dark thoughts the whole day. Thankfully i had a counselling session that late afternoon. That helped alot. Calmed me down and helped me focus as well.

Came home from work and had a brief chat with wife. The OM had fought with his wife apparently and i think the reality has gotten to my Wife now that the cats out the bag. Shes the nasty lady after another woman's husband.

(You guys are going to give me flak for this next piece) I decided to be the better man and told her i couldn't let her sleep on the couch, that my son shouldn't see his mummy that way and neither would i. I told her to take the Master Bedroom and that I will sleep on the couch like she did the previous night.

Earlier that day I had also texted her sister whom she has had no contact with for a few months because of me. A bad incident involving her husband showing up at my business place with a machete accusing my business partner of adultery with his wife.

Suffice to say because of the incident i cut ties with sister and her husband. (A little backstory, wife's sister is an ex-con ex-junkie whom after serving time i hired to work at my business. She had been working for me with no problems for two years until this incident)

My wife blamed me for the distance between her and her sister so i reached out and the sister came to the house that night. That made wife happy to reconnect with her sister.

I think she went to bed a little happy cause in the morning she told me i didn't need to sleep on the couch. In the car to work she chatted about a funny incident at work the previous day and few other things. Right before i dropped her off she said "see you later"... That is a first in 5 weeks. I was surprised, i smiled back at her and said "yea".

I cant help feel this is a positive step but also i'm done hoping, i'm done with tears, i'm keeping my expectations down cause she sees the OM at work everyday and i know anything can change at anytime.

Apologies, so much back story.
Btw, a small additional back story about wife's ex-junkie ex-con sister. I also practically adopted her son, he has been living with me past 3-4 years and i consider him my son too.