More detachment, anxiety and the joys of limbo

[Painter]

Phoebe, I am so sorry you're having such a rough time! Did you shake like this before they put you on meds? So you're sure it's not a side effect?

I wonder if you could get some help from alternative modalities. I would recommend trying essential oils, they have an amazing effect (you won't believe it until you try it) and can be quite powerful and work immediately for the nervous system.

I make a blend of oils in an almond oil base: Lavender, frankinscense, ylang ylang, and bergamot. All of those work great on their own, but the blend creates a wonderful scent and work better than either alone. You can both inhale it and put it on your skin, as long as it is properly diluted. This blend is for anxiety. (Bergamot and Frankinscense are for grief, as well.)

An Epsom salt bath is also profoundly relaxing, again much more powerful than you'd expect, especially if you combine it with the oils.

If there's a reflexologist in your area, these treatments can also give you amazing relief. Reiki is also wonderful.

I work in holistic medicine and the results I see are so powerful, most people who have not experienced it, are stunned. Some of them also involve touch, which is much needed in your situation.