WAS or what (6)

[roist]

I thought that I had fixed it but I will fix it. I do blow over small stuff but it us an accumulation rather than a specific incident. Any maybe some frustration is miss directed towards them. I do know that i it is their behavior that I react to. I am working on the tools to help guide their behavior and secondly on my interactions with them.

Z if you remember any specific steps or tools that helped you through that phase I would appreciate your insights.

I don't like those interactions and I am determined to remove them and how they make me feel. I accept this s my responsibility and also within my year, power to change.

I got to go home for lunch and W had put on a big fancy dinner. A few weeks back when she made my favourite dinner for the third time this year ( had it max once last year), I listed to my kids my three favourite dishes, the third one of which she hasn't made in years. Well it was made at lunchtime for me. Plus she got up early to bring my son get pastries for breakfast before I got up. I got a present too and a homemade cake. All great stuff and effort she did put in. I appreciate it all, but there was no feeling behind it. Even now she is considerate and does look after me and the boys v well. I acknowledge and appreciate that. I thank her fairly often..... . But I do not ground worship. By that I mean it is genuine gratitude for real acts and not fake over the top thanks to influence her.

On another note a friend of mine confided in me at the weekend that he and his W are discussing separation. He has moved on. He does not see that as the cause of the split but a result of the failing couple.I didn't argue that logic but thanked him for sharing that private info with me. That will be the eight couple in our locality that we know well that split since I started working on saving my M. I understand better than most about why people would want out, but still I want IN. I have also seen some LBS rise and shine afterwards. I have no doubt I will too but until then back to rebuilding version 2.0.