If you are trying to find hope by looking at her, and I think you are, then your ship will sink.
Whenever the H puts his life on hold, letting his WW decide what it will be.......then she's not interested. She knows he is waiting for her. She knows he's still there for her. It is when he drops the rope and stops looking back to see how she reacts that has more affect on both their lives.
Once you really drop the rope, then she will start to wonder if she's truly lost you. Until she thinks she has lost you, then she's not going to be concerned.
It is not about what you feel should work in your M. It is about doing the work that gets the right results. Do what works!