Mia, Don't apologize...it's an honest "oops" about the threads. You will need to decide which one you are going to keep active and we'll post on that one.
As for the time you have by yourself when the kids are w/him...use it wisely. This is your "me" time to do whatever you need to do, i.e., household stuff or personal stuff that you never get the chance to do. I would think about making some plans for the nice days ahead when you are by yourself. I do understand missing the kids, but it's a time when Mia needs to take care of Mia.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
