I love having my kids and doing new things with them. Took them to a fossil museum today, I still find it hard feeling like there is a piece missing and she is missing these things with the kids but I know it's her choice to do so. This situation does make me feel like I'm not missed at all except when she wants my help to do things for her. It did feel good to say yesterday morning that I was too busy to talk and be cheerful just saying bye. Got texts from her later talking about the kids. I know we don't know what is going through their heads but it is a hard feeling that we are made out to feel we are missed.
Picked up some books of things to do around me with kids to plan my next weekends with them. Also will use them to explore when I don't.
Feel my down days have been since I ran the half marathon the other weekend, need to come up with a new goal and challenge to focus on.
