House is quite clean but I dont think xh is ever going to step foot into the flat. The clean flat is for me and kid.
Murphy and I are so tight that Murphy's law was probably created for me. The next time xh steps into the flat, if he ever does so again, will be the next time the house is in a mess again.
X-fil kept calling about some vouchers that I him for niece and kid. I kept missing his calls and he kept calling. Yet when I finally picked up his call, all he wanted to know was how to use the vouchers. He asked about my new flat and I told him that I have already bought it. Kept things vague and x-fil wants to meet to talk. Again.
He is not above passing info to his son and my thinking is that if his son wants to know about our lives, he either gets to know it through the grapevine that is kid, or he can jolly well ask me. I think it's time for me to stop keeping kid in the loop. Time to control the leak of info.
X-fil is the one who keeps pursuing me for an R talk about his son and I keep avoiding him. Whatever has been said has been said. He tells me that he can see that I have changed. He can see what I have done for his son and his family. He says that he feels a bond after all these years.
BUT HE IS NOT HIS SON. AND I AM TIRED OF BEING COMPARED AND FOUND WANTING.
And I am so tired of ugly crying in public. I really think that it's a matter of time before some mean spirited person videos me and then posts it on the web.
This would be funny if not for the fact that his son fvcked our lives for a POS and x-fil had met that POS and sort of approved her.
And then I worry that he will be the one to break to me the news that xh is going to marry TP.
So, I will avoid another R talk with x-fil at all costs.
You can call me Dory/ Grl.
As a wise fish once sang,"Just keep swimming!"
It's no use to go back to yesterday because I was a different person then.
