I am going to take your advice for sure this evening. Move out day is over and I am still standing here in one piece. Physically and emotionally exhausted but I am still right here. WAW decided not to come back for the final load as I imagine she is out running around with her brother and sister living up her new dream life.
I have been with my girls today getting some groceries and I took my D17 for an interview with an internship with the John McCain campaign and she was accepted. She is so excited. I had lunch with D5 while we waited and had a good time.
I am now here with D5 about to eat dinner and then bathe her and watch a movie and play a game. D17 is off to her very first concert with her friends and is super excited. My first night as a single father. It's a bit surreal to say the least, but this will be the new norm for the foreseeable future I guess.
My D17 seems really excited for this as she has talked my ear off of the plans she wants to pursue together, individually and as a support team. She gives me great strength and has really kept me from focusing on the negative of all of this. I am very blessed as I am working to be the strong father and man here, she is keeping my spirits up in an incredible manner.
Well as I type this, the anxiety shakes have started up, so I am going to take your advice Phoebe and sit down, breath and center myself so I can be attentive and present for my sweet baby angel D5 this evening.
Me 46 Former W 46 D19 D7 BD Feb 2016 WAW moves out 4/16/16 D final 6/1/2017
It's time for me to start changin' the way I look at the world......and at myself. ~James Howlett aka Wolverine
