Way Too Late Pt 3

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Journaling:
I've decided to write the W a goodbye letter, apologizing for her perceived wrongs. This is as close as I feel I can get to validating as we're no longer communicating.

I state I'm not asking for anything, manning up for my goofs - and saying I'll miss her. With our settlement date 11 days away, there's not a lot I can do at this point, the DMV is slower here than the divorce process in CA. Hard to believe it can all be over in 3 months. Of course, I'm done budging - so who knows.

I have no idea what's going on in her life other than what people tell me - which isn't much. Other than the suspicion her A is over, even that's up for debate. Anyway, I don't see how I could possibly push her away any more, get her to resent me or rebel any more than she already is. So we'll see if it gets a grunt.

I still wonder about the message I got a month ago about stopping the divorce - maybe at that point she was reaching out and I didn't give her the right answer? At any rate, she changed her mind the next day as I asked a question rather than giving a statement. Who knows. I'm not even sure if she does.

Ugh.