I am so so grateful to LiM, Jeep, and others (GWH).

I really look forward to reading your posts to my stitch. YOu have no idea how much it helps to have someone there to make me feel less insane.

I miss H everyday and after his last texts and cried hard last night and on/off today. I just want to talk to him, I miss my friend and the man I love. I never feel like crawling or begging, I am actually really good with the not reaching out piece.

I have decided however that once D happens I have no interest in starting a new R with H. Once he takes that step then I am out because trust (which has already been an issue in our past as he has cheated) will be unbuildable - and I am okay with this.

My struggle is that he keeps popping up randomly and hurting my healing process - I know DETACH - but its hard to do when H keeps throwing things at me about the R and how sad and hurt he is.

He wants the D, so then why won't he just leave me alone!

Me:33 H:34
T: 3yrs M: 2yrs
H depression triggered and we are "unhealthy": 7/15
H wants to "make it work" 12/28
BD: 3/10/16