mleigh, So, what's stopping you from starting a new life w/the new you? You can do that and leave the door ajar for a bit. Your h has certainly been living his new life for the last year or so.
I do not think you are ready to actually pull the plug on your situation. You will know when you have had enough and want to start mediation.
mleigh, don't be afraid to think outside the box and venturing forth into your brand new world. Take it a little bit at a time and I think that if you begin venturing forth, your focus won't be so much on him or his dreadful family. It's time for mleigh to do some fun things for herself...time to step over that threshold and seeing what the world has to offer.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
