WAW still behaving angry and moving to divorce

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Phoebe, thank you for the words of encouragement and reminders that my run away emotions are not the sum of who I am.

I went to the bank with my D5 this morning and she said " Daddy, I want you and mommy both together." To which I replied, " Baby girl, we may be apart for a time, but I will not stop fighting to be together with mommy, you and your sister." To which she responded, " yay, daddy keep trying to be with mommy!"

This gave me a small bit of energy and a reminder of what I must continue to do. The D may be inevitable now, but I must get it together and fight for this.

Another note, WAW was agitated this morning as she was packing, and I asked her to talk for a moment. I asked if we could be civil as I understood that I have been making her mad, she replied, I am not mad. I am scared, and stressed and worried. She looked at me and said, this is not what I wanted, I did not want to do this. I validated her, and told her that I understand that this will be a challenge. She said that she needs to find herself and just have space to clear her mind and get herself back. She hugged me and said that I will not be alone and that I can take care of the girls and be a great dad.

Anyhow, I am doing a bit better and after one more small load of stuff, I will be alone for a bit and will try and relax and recoup from the energy drain today has been.

Thank you all for your prayers and support and words of encouragement today, it has provided great strength .