Hi SadHub, I'm just checking in and letting you know that I'm pulling for you today. I know that it is incredibly hard for you today.
Try not to beat yourself up for being unable to control your emotions and anxiety.
You are not a weak man. You're a good man who is heartbroken. A weak man goes out and has an affair and throws a good marriage away, a good man tries to care for his family and keep it together, even at great cost to himself. You are definitely the latter.
H: 44, Me: 45 Married: 20 y Together: 25 y no kids Walk away: 12/15 Asked for temp separation 12/25/15 PA confirmed 3/16 (apparently neither the first, nor the last PA he has had) H filed for D 5/16