Ghostbusting This

[RAI]

I think about my kids and,think,how selfish would that be

This is exactly what my blessed sister would tell me when my emotional pain became too much for me to handle. She was exactly right. I know that is not the legacy I want to leave my children. I want my children to see a man who rose above his struggles and embraced life despite the adversity.

Until BD I never experienced emotional pain. It's real. very real. But it does lessen over time. Also, each time that it rears it's ugly face again, you are better able to cope with it.

These feeling are normal. We have all had them at some point. Allow yourself to have them. But definitely seek help. Keep us in the loop.

Man Hugs!!

RAI

[rd500]

Hi G. How did the rest of the day go. Would appreciate an update please

Rd

[CWOL]

Yes, go see your MD and get on an AD. I started one a couple weeks ago and it has helped with the emotional roller-coaster somewhat. It doesn't make the problems go away but take the edges off.

[rd500]

Hi G Any news ?

[ATPeace]

Sorry for not getting back to you yesterday

I thought I had posted but for some reasons IT did not post

I did not get to go to the doctors what I did do was I booked myself into day t a councillor to help me with my spireling and she was good

She made things clearer to me I have a long way to go but I felt the session went well

I also had quite a good day interacting with W

I am getting on so much better with my daughter and my other three children love me to bits and I love them all

So lots of work to be done but I do not feel so dredfull I just have to remember this feeling right here right now

Thank you for being here RD one day I will make the journey to meet you and I will buy you a beer

I went out tonight to the casino I do know my limits but had a really good night came hime with lots of money

Thank you again

Ghost

[Vapo]

How much did you rob the casino of?

[ATPeace]

Was a good night made about £1000

[ATPeace]

So can someone help me with this one

I am still friends with my W in facebook I am guessing the right things would be to unfriend her so I do not see the posts of her getting by and posting thugs that indirectly hurt my feelings

Tonight she has decided to make plans to go out for a meal with someone else not sure who I know I cannot ask all I know is i am at hime watching her get ready to go out and it hurts me to see this

I have to tell her that I do not want to live with her any longer but this just seems so final

Even I know this is what I have to do to find peace I do not think I can do this does that sound weak

I am still so emotional and I know I am in control of my own feelings and thoughts

I just wanted to fix this but I cannot

So I tell myself what if she never ever wants to give you another chance then what how king am I going to do this for ....I do not know but I know I want this to stop and the only person that can do that is me

Crying does not help ...feeling sorry for myself does not help

For me to take the step is to accept and accept I must do .

I have good friends here

Feeling resigned and calm to accepting this

Ghost

[Vapo]

If you do not want to unfriend your W, you do not have to... You can just unfollow her and you will not see her posts. I personally am in favor of unfriending her, but unfollowing is the next best thing.

I am also missing your question in your last post. You write you need help with something, but the question seems to be missing...

V

[Vanilla]

Agreed unfold own W.

Stop Mind reading Mu

Vanilla